Rebellious.. Stage?

Hey I realise that I haven't posted in a long time.
Well nowadays I think of life values and such... Ever since last year, only I think it's getting worse haha. XD

So, the other day I got thinking of my behaviour during puberty (yes, random thoughts) and I was reflecting.
For everyone, the rebellious age happens at different times and is in different forms.
For me, it came as insecurity.

I was around 12 I think.
I hated my parents, hated my brother, hated school, distrusted friends etc.
Horrible emotional trauma.
I was constantly accusing my parents of favouring my brother, so I was.. Cruella Devil to him. Haha.
And I repeatedly doubted my two best friends of conspiring something against me... Of course, they never did that. Thank God for friends. <3

So, the relationships within my family was extremely bad, because me.. D':
My parents' mood got so bad; they yelled at everything and anything.
And me, I always thought that I was the victim.

Now that I think back, it all seemed so stupid. But I didn't realise it then, you know.
All stupid behaviours are like that. You don't realise that they're stupid while you're doing it.. Hurts the people around us. Sigh...

Well that is about all I have to say. To all the parents out there: your child doesn't know that they're wrong. Be understanding. Everyone has to go through that phase. ^^
I was so hurt when my parents yelled at me and often cried myself to sleep. Imagine that kind of stress on a 12-year-old. IT WAS AWFUL.
But yet, here I am.

Yes, I'm still going through puberty but at least that phase is over. :D

My phone's playing Get It Right, Glee. Awesome song.


What have I done 
Wish I could run 
Away from this ship 
Going under 
Just trying to help 
Hurt everyone else 
Now I feel the weight 
Of the world is 
On my shoulders 


What can you do 
When your good 
Isn't good enough 
And all that you touch 
Tumbles down 
Cause my best intentions 
Keep making a mess of things 
I just wanna fix it somehow 


No matter 
How many times will it take 
Oh how many times will it take 
For me to get it right 
To get it right 


Can I start again 
With my faith shaken 
Cause I can't go back 
And undo this 
I just have to stay 
And face my mistakes 
But if I get stronger and wiser 
I'll get through this 


What can you do 
When your good 
Isn't good enough 
And all that you touch 
Tumbles down 
Cause my best intentions 
Keep making a mess of things 
I just wanna fix it somehow 


No matter 
How many times will it take 
Oh how many times will it take 
For me to get it right 


So I throw up my fist 
Throw a punch in the air 
And accept the truth 
That sometimes life isn't fair 
Yeah I'll send out a wish 
Yeah I'll send up a prayer 
And finally 
Someone will see 
How much I care 


What can you do 
When your good 
Isn't good enough 
And all that you touch 
Tumbles down 
Oh my best intentions 
Keep making a mess of things 
Just wanna fix it somehow 


But how many times will it take 
Oh, how many times will it take 
To get it right, 
To get it right