Kissing is Gross

Obviously, I'm not a kisser. Or a hugger. Stopped kissing my parents at the age of... 7? Maybe?

I've recently starting hugging again. If my friends are sad I'll ask if they need a hug (but I'm still not that open to just hug them). I do hug my grandma. I'm not a very intimate person.

The point is, I've a 5-year-old cousin that got attached to me, and she's quite aggressive. Today she asked to sit on my lap and I said ok (I was quite stunned by her request to be honest). Then while she was showing me how to play dress-up games, our faces got really close together and she planted one on my cheeks... Which I, admittedly, felt kinda awkward about. She's very affectionate. She kept cuddling and touching my hand and even said "I love you" where I smiled and patted her head but like I said, I feel awkward about these kind of things. Can't remember the last time I told anyone "I love you" straight to their faces.

Two weeks ago my grandme planted one on me as well. And mannnn was that weird.

Obviously I've never had a boyfriend. (Yes, I am 18.)

Got kissed twice in two weeks. Quite scared to find out who'll kiss me next (most likely my mom). *shudder*