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100 Truths (18)

Maybe I should do these every now and then to see how much I've changed..

1. Real name: Maureen

2. Nickname: Mau-mau, mau, maur, ah maur, mau-mau monster, chillipadi, maudix, ghost...

3. Favourite color: Baby purple

4. Gender: FEMALE

5. Primary sch: St. Hilda's Primary School

6. Secondary sch: Hai Sing Catholic

7. Tertiary sch: Meridian JC

8. Higher education: HOPEFULLY

9. Hair color: Brown/black/maroon under sun..?

10. Tall or short: SHORT

11. Sweats or jeans: Sweats at home, jeans in cold rooms

12. Phone or camera: PHONE <3 font="">

13. Heath freak: Occasionally.

14. Orange or Apple: Depends on month HAHA

15. Do you have a crush on someone: No. I have no love life.

16. Eat or drink: Drink

17. Piercings: Had earholes but they closed up due to neglect.

18. Pepsi or Coke: PEPSI

Have you ever?

19. Been in an airplane: Oh, loads, definitely

20. Been in a relationship: No.

21. Been in a car accident: Minor one... I wasn't hurt, but the car was.

22. Been in a fist fight: Nope.

23. First piercing: Left ear I think

24. Best friend(s): Haha, read my blog and figure it out xD

25. First award: Primary school choir SYF silver...?

27. First word: Probably Mama

28. Last person you talked to: Hari!

29. Last person you thought of: Lizzy (I texted her)

30. Last person you texted: Lizzy 

31. Last person you watched a movie with: John, Hari, Lizzy a couple of hours ago (Delivery Man)

32. Last food you ate: Hong Kong Beef noodle

34. Last song you listened to: Something Glee

35. Last thing you bought: The food

36. Last person you hugged: Hannah from SERVE I guess

Favourite:

37. Food: CHOCOLATES (I'm easy to please)

38. Drink: Plain water...?

39. Lower clothing: Shorts, between knee-length and short shorts

40. Flower: As long as they're pretty

41. Animal: WOLVES

42. Superhero: Not really my thing

43. Movie: EARLY DISNEY

44. Subject: Maths..? Depends, changes with teachers and syllables

Have you ever:

45. Fallen in love with someone: No.

46. Celebrated Halloween: I WANT TO! But no.

47. Had your heart broken: Yes, duh. My heart breaks every time I take a taxi.

48. Went over the texts in your cellphone: Some texts, no patience for all.

49. Had someone like you: Yes.

50. (????)

51. Got pregnant: HA. No.

52. Had an abortion: No.

53. Did something I regret: Of course.

54. Broke a promise: ...does being late count

55. Hide a secret: Yes

56. Pretended to be happy: Of course, it's only polite

57. Met someone who changed your life: I change with every person I meet I swear I'm like a parrot

58. Pretended to be sick: No. If I skip CCA, I skip CCA. I don't give lame excuses.

59. Left the country: YES! 

60. Tried something you normally wouldn't and liked it: Of course, I'm daring and brave. (HA.)

61. Cried over the silliest thing: Yes, I knew I was pms-ing

62. Ran a mile: Yes

63. Went to the beach with your best friend(s): Yes

64. Got into an argument with your friends: Yes

65. Disliked someone: Yes

66. Stayed single for 2 years since the first time you had a bf/gf: Never had one. No love life.

67. Had sex: AHAHAHA no.

Currently:

68. Eating: What..? No.

69. Drinking: No.

70. Listening: The wind, my Dad's tv, keyboard typing..

72. Plans for today: BATHE AND SLEEP

73. Waiting for: Nothing, really. To understand the meaning of life..?

Your future:

74. Want kids: Sure, why not.

75. Want to get married: If I meet someone I can tolerate and can tolerate me (hahaha, Imma stay single for life -_- )

76. Career: Probably something that has to do with everything since I have such a short attention spam

What you prefer:

77. Lips or eyes: EYES

78. Shorter or Taller: Taller

79. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous

80. Pets: I WANT A GREY WOLF. Or a husky.

81. Nice or strict parents: 40/60..?

82. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.

83. Looks or personality: Personality. Can get plastic surgery (jk xD).

Have you ever:

84. Lost glasses/contacts: Contacts. They are such a pain in the-

85. Snuck out of house: Haha not possible.

86. Held a gun/knife for self defense: Nope.

87. Killed somebody: Nope.

88. Been in love: Nope.

90. Cried over a death: Yes

Do you believe in

91. Yourself: No.

92. Miracles: Yes, definitely.

93. Love at first sight: Surprisingly, yes. I only buy things I fall in love at first sight with, because I will (tried and tested!) continue to like it. Does this work on humans?

94. Heaven: Yes.

95. Santa Claus: Haha, no.

96. Aliens: Not sure...

97. Ghosts: Spirits of dead people, no. Demons/devil, yes.

Truthfully:

98. Is there one person you really want to be with right now: No. I like being alone.

99. Do you know who your real friends are: I don't really know. Not sure if just me, or my standards too high and I'm expecting too much.

100. Do you believe in God: YES. My heavenly Daddy HAHA.

Fulfillment

I've been real busy the past month. From the day I went to Taiwan to today, I've been busy non-stop. Yesterday was my first day in a long while where I had nothing to do and could sit in my room all day~
But I like being busy. It makes my days seem well-spent, instead of just sitting in front of my computer all day.
Of course, it's also very tiring. In Taiwan, I woke up at 9am everyday and left the house (to play, of course, but playing is still tiring) and only went back at 11pm. So yeah, I did complain about being too damn busy.

But then I remembered how I was complaining to my Mom about having to stay in Taiwan for 3 weeks when I initially only wanted 2. I was torn between spending time in Taiwan with my Dad and staying for the Countdown party and in the end, I decided to do both, hence the 3 weeks.

Disclaimer: I am a Christian, but I'm not very religious. Yes, I believe in one true God, our Father in heaven, but I don't believe in bringing God into every sentence I say. It's freaky. And yes, I believe in miracles and I do attribute the miraculous 'coincidences' in my life to His planning.

As I was saying, I was complaining about having nothing to do for 3 weeks, because my 8 cousins all had started work or were busy preparing for exams that none of them were really home nor had the time to play with me. Miraculously, they were extremely free the time I was there. Everyday. they brought me out to shop and dine and play until I gained at least 5kg (curses). I was scheduled to reach Sg on the night of the 6th.

Anyway, late November to early December last year, when I was wondering if I should start searching for jobs, my Dad told me about SERVE program that is organised by the Diocesan Youth Board, I was told it was a hospital thing, where we learn the skills to take care of the elderly, the sick, the disabled etc, that there was to be a mission trip at the end, and that we were given about $500 allowance (for transport and food expenses and such) per month. I was hesitant at first because I HATE camps, and there was supposed to be a 3D2N camp in Sentosa, not to mention I had another job waiting. I don't like interacting with people, more specifically the popular, overly-hyped kind. I dunno, I can't carry a conversation with such people, and the conversations we do have are all quite shallow... I just don't understand those people. I'm a self-confessed introvert, and happy with it. In the end, I decided to sign up because I thought, hey, this would be a much better use of my time than serving snobby people at some restaurant. So I just handed in my application and left Sg without knowing when it starts, was I in or not, who else is in...
The funny thing is, SERVE orientation starts 7th Jan, the very next day, and camp is from 8-10th Jan. 11th was my rest day (aka camp in front of computer day), and today is the 12th!

I couldn't have planned my schedule better if I did it on purpose. Yeah, I take this as a sign from God that I'm meant to be here. And surprise, surprise, the theme for the camp was 'Identity and Destiny', the very thing that I had been mulling over for 2 years and recently got scared thinking about. So I started on my journey of self-discovery.

My abilities are not very clear cut, neither are my interests. That's why I'm so confused. I cook passable food, I made it into JC, drawings are not ugly, singing ok, dancing ok, alright at interacting with elders and children (I only have problem with people my age... Ha.), ok at handling electronics (read the manual if all else fails)... Basically everything(?) ok, passable, but nothing exceptional. I really don't know what I want to do in life. I have a very curious heart but short attention spam, plus I learn fast, so I can't really hold a hobby for long. Compared to other people I've met.. Some are damn good at their studies, others good at drawing, music, baking etc... They have all found their passion. Me, I have no passion. *Sigh*

That's why I'm really hoping that I'll find some answers, if not all, in SERVE program.

PS, yes, I did enjoy the camp. They let us play ClimbMax, ParaJump, and most fun of all, MegaZip! It's like flying in the air at >60km/hour (I went faster than others.. Fat %?)

Weird Tastes

I'm in Taiwan now~ Temperature ranging from 'cinema cool' to school examination hall 'dammit I can't feel my fingers' cold. 

My friend John (female) was telling me about how she's quickly losing interest in Asian men, because let's face it, there are more good looking Eurasian guys than there are good looking Asian guys... (We were watching some American film when she came to sleep over~) 

I'm the type that gets very easily influenced by emotions and my 'sixth sense' (somewhat). Honestly all faces look the same to me. Maybe I lack some nerve ending to distinguish good looks? My friends would see some cute guy and when they point it out to me, I'll be like 'eh, I guess so'. 

When I walk along the road I don't rate people's faces. I don't even register how the other person looks. I think I mostly judge people by their body language and smell. My mom said that I recognised people by smell when I was a baby and will cry if I didn't like the person's smell (smoke, alcohol etc). The more I like the person, the prettier (I don't have close guy friends so I can't say for guys) they seem to me. Hmmm... 

Anyway, I've recently realised that I cannot take the damn good-looking people seriously, especially the guys. The good looking ones all just seem so... Pretty. Zac efron? Yeah, damn pretty. Look at those eyes. Same with Michelle Phan's boyfriend. They just become so good looking that they lose their manliness. 

Maybe 10 years of having useless junk rammed into my head loosened a few screws?

I really hope it's not just me. xD

Post A's

So my last paper was on 28th Nov. Today is the second day of post-A period and I already have no idea what to do... I still feel obligated to study. *sigh*

The night before my last paper, biology MCQ that is an afternoon paper from 2 pm to 3.15 pm, I dreamt that I woke up at 1.15 pm. I thought I was screwed &#@^*!! It takes about 40 mins to travel to school, not to mention changing, brushing my teeth etc.. Scary nightmare.

Anyway, here is my to-do list:

1. Upgrade my guitar skills

2. Learn Korean before I go to Korea in Feb (YAYYY~~)

3. Read Harry Potter, Percy Jackson series etc..

4. Quit being unemployed

5. Buy shoes (Gahhh, shopping)

6. Buy headphones (that are reasonably priced)

7. Do volunteer work

Tentative goals:

8. Learn piano

9. Learn one more language (French/Italian/Spanish.. Depends on which country I might visit)

It seems like everything that I have planned to do only makes me so much poorer. I'm going ice-skating with my class on Monday, maybe watching a movie afterwards, going to the zoo and night safari on Tuesday, ate sashimi buffet and went karaoke-ing yesterday, gonna travel Singapore someday before my student pass expires etc... 

I just spent my entire day lazing in my bed. How productive.

Ender's Game

So I watched Ender's Game just now and I love it! What am I doing watching a movie in the middle of the most important exam of my life (so far) you ask? Well, I kinda lost my sanity a week ago so... Who cares.

The film, the novel.

This is another alien-human future world and focuses on the struggle of a 10-year-old boy, our tactics genius protagonist Ender. The movie does not do a very good job on explicitly explaining the details of background stories, and only a few characters were really developed. One too many characters like Ender's brother Peter ended up as a touch-and-go character. The first 30 mins was confusing and had a lot of holes... It's a movie that grows on you.
The CGI was awesome though! And maybe it's just me, because I don't like to watch action films on the big screen, but dayum was my heart pounding. Like when they pulled the monitor out of his neck, when the mouse jumped into the giant's eye, or when he was commanding the "stimulation" attacks on the aliens.

To be honest though if I was one of the officers that worked my butt off to be able to enter the Battle School or Command Base, I wouldn't be too thrilled to have to take orders from a 10-year-old kid who only enrolled a few months ago and manged to climb up ranks to become "Commander".

Definitely gonna read the book now haha. My ever-growing list of things to do after A's. xD

MUST go and watch Ender's Game! So much better than Thor 2 where Natalie Portman becomes a useless flower vase.. And Loki "dies" again. He 'dies' in every single movie and comes back again with the exact same aim... *sigh*

Ok bye~ My exam ends 28th November AND I CANNOT WAIT.

So.... My Life Is About To Reboot

The A-Levels are coming. The 5 subjects, 11 papers in 1 month that I'm about to sit through determines the success or failure of my 14-year education. Quite the undervaluation, ain't it. 

I know it sounds melodramatic (I'm gonna look back at this post 10 years later and, hopefully, scoff), but it does feel like what my life adds up to is about to end. My results are....very worrying. I'm at the end of my road because unlike other people who has financial capabilities, I don't. I can't apply for scholarships with my results. I can't go overseas for University. My only option is to enter local U. 

There is a very high chance of me not being able to enter local U. Or, even if I could, it would be some crappy course that I have completely no interest in. 

But after A's... Freedom. 

That's all my friends and I ever talk about this month. We would be walking on the streets, saying, hey, let's go shopping after A's or let's go cafe-hopping after A's or even let's go overseas after A's! 

Instead of working towards the examinations, we are all working towards after the examinations. 

Well, in the event that I really can't enroll in local U, I've already told my mum that I'll take a gap year (debit, of course). Maybe go backpacking, maybe do voluntary work... I'll see where it takes me. 

So here I am, doing the 10-9 sit-in in the library, turning my butt to cold stone, in a room full of my enemies (hahaha) busy attacking one script after another and me... Typing away on my phone. 

I should really get back to studying. 

All the best!!